Here's a poem, cause I haven't penned any for a while
Unseen, unknown, you hide your heart
Placed it deep inside the dark
Resisting Cupid's loving sting
Afraid of what it might bring
"Love" you scoff, "And what more
Will I have to suffer for?
Love and pain and hurt and hate?
That is what I must abate?"
But I cry out, "'Tis not true!
Love is not that ghastly hue
You have colored it to be
It lets you grow! It sets you free!
Tis a wondorus oath between good friends
No fight or tear love cannot mend!
If you let it take your heart
Joy and peace are not far off!"
You glare at me with disdain
"Is it worth all that pain?
Of poisoned words and tainted lies
To suffer and hurt then bid good-bye?"
I reply, with great haste
"This one life, do not waste!
Tis better to have love and lost
Then to curse your tombstone's frost!"
Your lip curls, in disgust
"Why do you make all of this fuss?
What do you care if I'm alone
Till I'm buried 'neath the stone?"
I smile at you, depsite your words
"Because, pretender, you haven't heard
A single word that I have said
Your mind's awake but your ears are dead!
I love you, you foolish man!
See this ring upon my hand?
We took an oath to be true
And for forever, I'll love you."
In silent shock you gaze upon
Your own ring you thought gone
And with a guilty smile on your face
You take me in with full embrace.
"I thought wrong" I heard you speak
The words themselves, they left me weak
"That's okay..." I whispered close.
More beautiful we were than dancing prose.
That's that. It took me like thirty minutes, give or take five. It's good. I think I'll print a copy and keep it with me...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Back to 2009
I haven't written in such a long time. It's actually sort of pathetic the way I abuse my online privliges. Watching youtube vids instead of posting here... mainly Sailor Moon. Which I absolutely LOVE by the way. If you don't know what Sailor Moon is, Google it or go to Wikipedia or something. You don't know what you're missing.
I should be finishing my chem lab report right now, but I'll do that later. I was thinking about posting a pic of me with my new undies (and just my undies...) but common sense kicked in *cough Julia cough* and I decided semi-nude photos on the web was just a bad idea. I mean, unless you guys really wanna see it. ;)
You know who's cute? Jory. He's in my chem class. He's so quiet and reserved... it's kinda sexy. Daniel, too. Ermh... anyways. Digressing. I got a game over break called Mass Effect. I really like it, it's an RPG that lets you make decisions and fall in love, but a very little, itsy bitsy thing that bothers me. YOU CAN'T HAVE A MALE CHARACTER AND HAVE A MALE LOVE INTEREST! Simply, you can't be gay. Well, that's not entirely true. If you make a woman, then you can, which is totally unfair. There's this alien, and "it's name is Liara. It's race, the Asari, is "non-gendered" and can mate with any gender and with any species to make babies. Thing is, they are so totally women! Their life stages are: Maiden, somehting I can't rememver, and MAtriarch. Those are definteyl female. And she has boobies! BREASTS!! They have female voice actors and they are have girly names. They are female. But, if you make a female character, you can have hot lesbian alien sex with Liara, but if you make a dude, you can't buttf*ck Lt. Kaiden, a man! (granted, he's sorta ugly, but the game's set in space and there's only so many men on one space ship. Actually, I wouldn't mind boning Joker, the pilot. Except he has a disease that makes his bones really brittle, and the sound of breaking bones really isn;t that sexy. Well, maybe for some people... but pain isn't sexy. At all. Well, maybe a little bit... Ermh... anywyas...) Another game I rented was Gears of War 2, and I fell in love with Benjamin Carmine. In Gears 1, I was hot for his older brother, Anthony, but then he got his head shot off. It was ugly. But anyways, the CArmine brothers... mmm.... Benjamin is the youngest of four brothers, and I thnk they're gonna put another bro in Gears 3. Anywyas, Benjamin is really attractive and my personal fave so far. He's tall and strong, and goofy and kinda clumsy, but that just makes me want to hug him (and in the process, feel all of those yummy, taut muscles underneath that skin-tight uniform which outline every little detail, including his... OMG I was literally drooling.) Um, um, anyways, he's cute. His voice actor did a good job of portraying his boyishness. If he was a person... I would... well, I don't think we need to illustrate that more that necassary... he's just so... mm... provokes a growling, groaning sound from the back of my throat.
Anyways, on a heterosexual tangent, in the same game was a guy named Dominic, who is searching for his wife (I know, lame right? JK! Well... kinda.) Anyways, he spends forever looking for her because she might still be alive. But when Dom and friends finally find her, she's been wasted away to almost nothing. She's still alive, but she doesn't even look human anymore. And Dom hugs her and starts crying and says "Maria! I don't care what you look like, I just want to hear your voice again!" She just stares at him with vacant eyes: she's dead on the inside. Then he hugs her and whispers, "I love you so much Maria... I just want you to know that I love you..." She just sways in the his arms and he starts sobbing. I literally started crying. I've never cried at a video game before, even when Colette lost her soul in Tales of Symphonia (whoa, different game, different story...). It was just so sad, and he had dedicated his life to finding MAria because he loved her so much, and when he finally found her, she was soul-less. His love was just so overwhelming, and I was like, "That's the kind of man I need: someone who will love me no matter what." I was so sad. It was absolutely tragic. Tragic...
Back to REAL men, do you guys think there is a sure way to tell if a guy is gay? (I mean, other then walking in on bonegrinding man-on-man intercourse...) Cause, sometimes, I just can't tell. I know I've alreadyposted somehting like this but, I'm curious... Anyways, here's a list of people I think are attractive: actually, that's a bad idea. Nevermind.
Why aren't there more gays at our school? It's ridiculous! this is Oly High! The doors should be bustin' with homos! I mean there are a couple, but they are all so... fem. I need a masculine gay. I mean, he doesn't have to own a gun, smoke, and ride a HArley, but a gay who doesn't flip his wrist and dress in drag would be nice. I know, I'm sorta fem, but I'm not the girliest gay in the world. On a scale of one to ten, one being Chuck Norris and ten being Mrs. Jay, I think I'm a six or five. I'm, not "He-Man", but I also don't wear lip gloss.
Wow this is way long. Alright, time for homwork I guess... WEll, maybe I could watch some Sailor Moon... just a couple episodes....
I should be finishing my chem lab report right now, but I'll do that later. I was thinking about posting a pic of me with my new undies (and just my undies...) but common sense kicked in *cough Julia cough* and I decided semi-nude photos on the web was just a bad idea. I mean, unless you guys really wanna see it. ;)
You know who's cute? Jory. He's in my chem class. He's so quiet and reserved... it's kinda sexy. Daniel, too. Ermh... anyways. Digressing. I got a game over break called Mass Effect. I really like it, it's an RPG that lets you make decisions and fall in love, but a very little, itsy bitsy thing that bothers me. YOU CAN'T HAVE A MALE CHARACTER AND HAVE A MALE LOVE INTEREST! Simply, you can't be gay. Well, that's not entirely true. If you make a woman, then you can, which is totally unfair. There's this alien, and "it's name is Liara. It's race, the Asari, is "non-gendered" and can mate with any gender and with any species to make babies. Thing is, they are so totally women! Their life stages are: Maiden, somehting I can't rememver, and MAtriarch. Those are definteyl female. And she has boobies! BREASTS!! They have female voice actors and they are have girly names. They are female. But, if you make a female character, you can have hot lesbian alien sex with Liara, but if you make a dude, you can't buttf*ck Lt. Kaiden, a man! (granted, he's sorta ugly, but the game's set in space and there's only so many men on one space ship. Actually, I wouldn't mind boning Joker, the pilot. Except he has a disease that makes his bones really brittle, and the sound of breaking bones really isn;t that sexy. Well, maybe for some people... but pain isn't sexy. At all. Well, maybe a little bit... Ermh... anywyas...) Another game I rented was Gears of War 2, and I fell in love with Benjamin Carmine. In Gears 1, I was hot for his older brother, Anthony, but then he got his head shot off. It was ugly. But anyways, the CArmine brothers... mmm.... Benjamin is the youngest of four brothers, and I thnk they're gonna put another bro in Gears 3. Anywyas, Benjamin is really attractive and my personal fave so far. He's tall and strong, and goofy and kinda clumsy, but that just makes me want to hug him (and in the process, feel all of those yummy, taut muscles underneath that skin-tight uniform which outline every little detail, including his... OMG I was literally drooling.) Um, um, anyways, he's cute. His voice actor did a good job of portraying his boyishness. If he was a person... I would... well, I don't think we need to illustrate that more that necassary... he's just so... mm... provokes a growling, groaning sound from the back of my throat.
Anyways, on a heterosexual tangent, in the same game was a guy named Dominic, who is searching for his wife (I know, lame right? JK! Well... kinda.) Anyways, he spends forever looking for her because she might still be alive. But when Dom and friends finally find her, she's been wasted away to almost nothing. She's still alive, but she doesn't even look human anymore. And Dom hugs her and starts crying and says "Maria! I don't care what you look like, I just want to hear your voice again!" She just stares at him with vacant eyes: she's dead on the inside. Then he hugs her and whispers, "I love you so much Maria... I just want you to know that I love you..." She just sways in the his arms and he starts sobbing. I literally started crying. I've never cried at a video game before, even when Colette lost her soul in Tales of Symphonia (whoa, different game, different story...). It was just so sad, and he had dedicated his life to finding MAria because he loved her so much, and when he finally found her, she was soul-less. His love was just so overwhelming, and I was like, "That's the kind of man I need: someone who will love me no matter what." I was so sad. It was absolutely tragic. Tragic...
Back to REAL men, do you guys think there is a sure way to tell if a guy is gay? (I mean, other then walking in on bonegrinding man-on-man intercourse...) Cause, sometimes, I just can't tell. I know I've alreadyposted somehting like this but, I'm curious... Anyways, here's a list of people I think are attractive: actually, that's a bad idea. Nevermind.
Why aren't there more gays at our school? It's ridiculous! this is Oly High! The doors should be bustin' with homos! I mean there are a couple, but they are all so... fem. I need a masculine gay. I mean, he doesn't have to own a gun, smoke, and ride a HArley, but a gay who doesn't flip his wrist and dress in drag would be nice. I know, I'm sorta fem, but I'm not the girliest gay in the world. On a scale of one to ten, one being Chuck Norris and ten being Mrs. Jay, I think I'm a six or five. I'm, not "He-Man", but I also don't wear lip gloss.
Wow this is way long. Alright, time for homwork I guess... WEll, maybe I could watch some Sailor Moon... just a couple episodes....
Sunday, December 14, 2008
I jizzed in my pants
OMG. That's exactly what I said, outloud, as I watched this. OMG. Oh. Em. Gee.
Alright, don't ask (I know, you're thinking, "WTF, with a capital fuck, is wrong with this person?") I just got done playing a game (ICEWIND DALE! WOOT!) and I decided that before I hit the hay, why not take a little trip over to Youtube? And you know how they have that little bar that has movies that other people are watching? Well, I saw this, and being the curious, devious, (*cough* perverted) wonder that I am, I just couldn't resist taking a peek. And I ended up with OMG. This is really hilarious. Personally, I've never experienced a spontanious orgasm, resulting in the befouling of my undergarments, but the guy's kinda cute. Except for those faces he makes... I wonder if he makes those expressions during the real thing... that would sorta ruin the mood. Scratch that, faces like those would DEFINITELY ruin the mood. I'd be like, "Um... you look like you just stepped in something."
Answer: "Maybe I did...!"
Me: "Ew."
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Alright, so on a short, random side note, I'm starting a new poll on favorite weapons. somebody *very* attractive offered the idea in french, so why not? Anyways, I thought about MY favorite weapon (no pun there, actually) and I came to the halberd. The *very* attractive person asks: "What's a halberd?" So I googled it and came up with this picture of a hot guy and a halberd. Then somebody said something about: "Betch you want him to hold YOUR shaft..." and then I started laughing. It's true. I do want to hold my shaft... *I mean, my halberd's shaft* *cough*
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sir Rupert, the Gay Knight
This video is freakin' AWESOME!! I loved it; it's very well done, it's hilarious and the story-telling voice is perfectly tranquil. I'm not gonna lie, and that is to say/why can't I find a gay knight to take ME away?
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
On the Topic of... Well, Men of course!
Okay, so I never wrote that oneshor, but i did one better: I'm finishing my 1984 fanfic, which you can read at this link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4312775/1/Memories_Are_Not_Forever
Anyways, its rated "M" (like this blog!) so readers beware! It's good, and I'm adding several chapters. I'm done with chapter four, so that should go up soon. Also, added a new poll to this site. Check it out!
I 'heart' O'Brien! he's such a vicious bastard! Well, not in my story... Also, I found this HILARIOUS madtv parody for Jewel (you know, the singer?). Just search "Mad TV Prostitution". (Don't worry, its only slighly in appropriate) Don't get scared of the name. It's funny. Check it out.
Is it just me, or does it seem like hot guys have an affinity for being assholes? Granted, that's not true in all cases (well... men have a bad habit of being full of themselves...), but really, everytime I see a cute guy, one of my friends leans over and whispers "Don't like him, he's a dick!" Dicks I like. But not the figurative kind. I'm really excited to get back into writing. I havent' written anything for a long time, and I was wondering why life was sucking so hard right now. The it came to me: I haven't written for like three weeks! So, I have a good story idea, about how this angel (male, of course. I know, angels don't have genitals, but this one does because he's God's... "favorite".) falls in love with a mortal being. I can just imagine some of the dialogue. Here's a taste of what it's like talking to God.
Angel: *nervously* So... I, uh, need to say something...
God: Hm? Go ahead.
A: I think... I think I've fallen in love.
G: *frowns* What do you mean?
A: I don't know... *makes stupid-dreamy face* I just can't stop thinking about him...
G: What!? HIM?! Are you crazy?!
A: See, I knew you'd do this.....
G: *angry face* You aren't supposed to meddle in the affairs of humanity!
A: I know... but he looked so cute... and vulnerable...
G: *gasps* You didn't do 'that' with him... did you?
A: *flips hand* No! Of course not!
G: *stares at Angel* I know everything. Don't try to lie to me.
A: *sighs* Well... maybe a little... my eyes were closed! And... he was kinda drunk... and he doesn't remember... so it really doesn't count...
G: YES IT DOES! *pouts* I thought... I thought 'we' had something special...
A: Well, you're not exactly a physical entity...
G: *throws up hands * Oh, I see, it's all 'physical' with you young angels!
A: No! Well, I mean... gah, stupid knowing everything...
G: Personal feelings aside *and there are ALOT of those* you directly disobeyed me. Now, it is time for your punishment.
A: *backs away* Why... um, why are you looking at me like that?
G: *cackles* This is the perfect... CHANGE! *lighting flies from hands*
A: NOOOOOOO!!!! *dust clears, Angel looks down*
G:Mwahahaha...
A: WHAT DID YOU DO!?!?! *rips off pants* THIS ISN"T WHAT I WAS MADE WITH!
G: Well, you wanted to be with him. *grins acidly* So I made it possible. Go now, with my blessing, and my transgender gift. *giggles*
A: I want to be with him as a MAN... *sniffs*
G: Not allowed. And that's what you get. This is better that last time though.
A: Last time?
G: Yeah. I doomed my last boyfriend to be the Prince of Evil. You know, Satin.
A: You dated Satin?
G: *shrugs* For a little while.
A: Geez, if I had known that, I wouldn't have gotten involved...
G: *fire explodes in background* WHAT?!
A: Ah... nothing... goodbye now... *runs away*
G: You're still me bitch, whether yu know it or not.
That;s it. I'm tired now, so goodnight...
Anyways, its rated "M" (like this blog!) so readers beware! It's good, and I'm adding several chapters. I'm done with chapter four, so that should go up soon. Also, added a new poll to this site. Check it out!
I 'heart' O'Brien! he's such a vicious bastard! Well, not in my story... Also, I found this HILARIOUS madtv parody for Jewel (you know, the singer?). Just search "Mad TV Prostitution". (Don't worry, its only slighly in appropriate) Don't get scared of the name. It's funny. Check it out.
Is it just me, or does it seem like hot guys have an affinity for being assholes? Granted, that's not true in all cases (well... men have a bad habit of being full of themselves...), but really, everytime I see a cute guy, one of my friends leans over and whispers "Don't like him, he's a dick!" Dicks I like. But not the figurative kind. I'm really excited to get back into writing. I havent' written anything for a long time, and I was wondering why life was sucking so hard right now. The it came to me: I haven't written for like three weeks! So, I have a good story idea, about how this angel (male, of course. I know, angels don't have genitals, but this one does because he's God's... "favorite".) falls in love with a mortal being. I can just imagine some of the dialogue. Here's a taste of what it's like talking to God.
Angel: *nervously* So... I, uh, need to say something...
God: Hm? Go ahead.
A: I think... I think I've fallen in love.
G: *frowns* What do you mean?
A: I don't know... *makes stupid-dreamy face* I just can't stop thinking about him...
G: What!? HIM?! Are you crazy?!
A: See, I knew you'd do this.....
G: *angry face* You aren't supposed to meddle in the affairs of humanity!
A: I know... but he looked so cute... and vulnerable...
G: *gasps* You didn't do 'that' with him... did you?
A: *flips hand* No! Of course not!
G: *stares at Angel* I know everything. Don't try to lie to me.
A: *sighs* Well... maybe a little... my eyes were closed! And... he was kinda drunk... and he doesn't remember... so it really doesn't count...
G: YES IT DOES! *pouts* I thought... I thought 'we' had something special...
A: Well, you're not exactly a physical entity...
G: *throws up hands * Oh, I see, it's all 'physical' with you young angels!
A: No! Well, I mean... gah, stupid knowing everything...
G: Personal feelings aside *and there are ALOT of those* you directly disobeyed me. Now, it is time for your punishment.
A: *backs away* Why... um, why are you looking at me like that?
G: *cackles* This is the perfect... CHANGE! *lighting flies from hands*
A: NOOOOOOO!!!! *dust clears, Angel looks down*
G:Mwahahaha...
A: WHAT DID YOU DO!?!?! *rips off pants* THIS ISN"T WHAT I WAS MADE WITH!
G: Well, you wanted to be with him. *grins acidly* So I made it possible. Go now, with my blessing, and my transgender gift. *giggles*
A: I want to be with him as a MAN... *sniffs*
G: Not allowed. And that's what you get. This is better that last time though.
A: Last time?
G: Yeah. I doomed my last boyfriend to be the Prince of Evil. You know, Satin.
A: You dated Satin?
G: *shrugs* For a little while.
A: Geez, if I had known that, I wouldn't have gotten involved...
G: *fire explodes in background* WHAT?!
A: Ah... nothing... goodbye now... *runs away*
G: You're still me bitch, whether yu know it or not.
That;s it. I'm tired now, so goodnight...
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