Back to 2009

I haven't written in such a long time. It's actually sort of pathetic the way I abuse my online privliges. Watching youtube vids instead of posting here... mainly Sailor Moon. Which I absolutely LOVE by the way. If you don't know what Sailor Moon is, Google it or go to Wikipedia or something. You don't know what you're missing.

I should be finishing my chem lab report right now, but I'll do that later. I was thinking about posting a pic of me with my new undies (and just my undies...) but common sense kicked in *cough Julia cough* and I decided semi-nude photos on the web was just a bad idea. I mean, unless you guys really wanna see it. ;)

You know who's cute? Jory. He's in my chem class. He's so quiet and reserved... it's kinda sexy. Daniel, too. Ermh... anyways. Digressing. I got a game over break called Mass Effect. I really like it, it's an RPG that lets you make decisions and fall in love, but a very little, itsy bitsy thing that bothers me. YOU CAN'T HAVE A MALE CHARACTER AND HAVE A MALE LOVE INTEREST! Simply, you can't be gay. Well, that's not entirely true. If you make a woman, then you can, which is totally unfair. There's this alien, and "it's name is Liara. It's race, the Asari, is "non-gendered" and can mate with any gender and with any species to make babies. Thing is, they are so totally women! Their life stages are: Maiden, somehting I can't rememver, and MAtriarch. Those are definteyl female. And she has boobies! BREASTS!! They have female voice actors and they are have girly names. They are female. But, if you make a female character, you can have hot lesbian alien sex with Liara, but if you make a dude, you can't buttf*ck Lt. Kaiden, a man! (granted, he's sorta ugly, but the game's set in space and there's only so many men on one space ship. Actually, I wouldn't mind boning Joker, the pilot. Except he has a disease that makes his bones really brittle, and the sound of breaking bones really isn;t that sexy. Well, maybe for some people... but pain isn't sexy. At all. Well, maybe a little bit... Ermh... anywyas...) Another game I rented was Gears of War 2, and I fell in love with Benjamin Carmine. In Gears 1, I was hot for his older brother, Anthony, but then he got his head shot off. It was ugly. But anyways, the CArmine brothers... mmm.... Benjamin is the youngest of four brothers, and I thnk they're gonna put another bro in Gears 3. Anywyas, Benjamin is really attractive and my personal fave so far. He's tall and strong, and goofy and kinda clumsy, but that just makes me want to hug him (and in the process, feel all of those yummy, taut muscles underneath that skin-tight uniform which outline every little detail, including his... OMG I was literally drooling.) Um, um, anyways, he's cute. His voice actor did a good job of portraying his boyishness. If he was a person... I would... well, I don't think we need to illustrate that more that necassary... he's just so... mm... provokes a growling, groaning sound from the back of my throat.

Anyways, on a heterosexual tangent, in the same game was a guy named Dominic, who is searching for his wife (I know, lame right? JK! Well... kinda.) Anyways, he spends forever looking for her because she might still be alive. But when Dom and friends finally find her, she's been wasted away to almost nothing. She's still alive, but she doesn't even look human anymore. And Dom hugs her and starts crying and says "Maria! I don't care what you look like, I just want to hear your voice again!" She just stares at him with vacant eyes: she's dead on the inside. Then he hugs her and whispers, "I love you so much Maria... I just want you to know that I love you..." She just sways in the his arms and he starts sobbing. I literally started crying. I've never cried at a video game before, even when Colette lost her soul in Tales of Symphonia (whoa, different game, different story...). It was just so sad, and he had dedicated his life to finding MAria because he loved her so much, and when he finally found her, she was soul-less. His love was just so overwhelming, and I was like, "That's the kind of man I need: someone who will love me no matter what." I was so sad. It was absolutely tragic. Tragic...

Back to REAL men, do you guys think there is a sure way to tell if a guy is gay? (I mean, other then walking in on bonegrinding man-on-man intercourse...) Cause, sometimes, I just can't tell. I know I've alreadyposted somehting like this but, I'm curious... Anyways, here's a list of people I think are attractive: actually, that's a bad idea. Nevermind.

Why aren't there more gays at our school? It's ridiculous! this is Oly High! The doors should be bustin' with homos! I mean there are a couple, but they are all so... fem. I need a masculine gay. I mean, he doesn't have to own a gun, smoke, and ride a HArley, but a gay who doesn't flip his wrist and dress in drag would be nice. I know, I'm sorta fem, but I'm not the girliest gay in the world. On a scale of one to ten, one being Chuck Norris and ten being Mrs. Jay, I think I'm a six or five. I'm, not "He-Man", but I also don't wear lip gloss.

Wow this is way long. Alright, time for homwork I guess... WEll, maybe I could watch some Sailor Moon... just a couple episodes....